Blessed be the holy Trinity, + one God, who forgives all our sin, whose mercy endures forever.
Merciful God, I confess that I have sinned in thought, word, and deed, by what I have done and by what I have left undone.
I have allowed the criticisms of others to define my actions and stopped doing what I love in order to please them. I am an ordained minister of Word and Sacrament, and it is to those that I am called.
I have believed those who have said I can’t, and wondered if they’re right after all.
I have focused more on the causes that speak to my heart, such as the treatment of the poor, women, racial minorities, and the LGBTQ+ community, than the concerns of those around me. I shouldn’t stop advocating for these causes, but I have failed to consider other causes and concerns.
I have been angry. So angry, all the time. And bitter. And that anger and bitterness has made it difficult to be pastorally present.
I have been consumed by politics like never before. It feels terrible.
I have found the perfect, destructive balance between selfishness and the absence of any self-care. I don’t sleep when I should, I eat crap, I don’t exercise, and I let sleep deprivation run my waking hours for too many years. I let illness run unchecked and untreated because I was afraid.
I have felt like giving up. Maybe I did.
I have been vindictive when I felt wronged, and stubborn when I felt right.
I have been impatient.
I repent of all my sins, known and unknown. I am truly sorry, and I pray for forgiveness. I firmly intend to amend my life, and to seek help in mending what is broken. I ask for strength to turn from sin and to serve you in newness of life.
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Parts taken from the Individual Confession and Forgiveness liturgy in Evangelical Lutheran Worship.
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From the ELW – God, who is rich in mercy, loves us even when we were dead in sin, and made us alive together with Christ. By grace you have been saved. In the name of +Jesus Christ, your sins are forgiven. Almighty God strengthen you with power through the Holy Spirit, that Christ may live in your hearts through faith.